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I was told that a recurrence could happen within the first 5 years. At the 5 year mark I thought, \u2018oh yay, I survived breast cancer!\u2019 I kept going for yearly mammograms and then, surprise, something showed up on the mammogram again. The cancer had returned to the same breast. I had a mastectomy and chemo in 2009 and then reconstructive surgery in 2010.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EI\u2019d probably heard the word metastatic \u003Cstrong\u003Ebefore, but didn\u2019t really know what it meant. But I never\u003C\/strong\u003E dreamed it would happen to me. It wasn\u2019t even on my radar. I was 56 years old when I found out the cancer was metastatic. At first I was shocked and thought it was a death sentence, I really did. I couldn\u2019t help but wonder if there was something I did wrong.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EA year or two after my first breast cancer diagnosis, one of my cousins was diagnosed. In 2011, my dad, who was 89 at the time, found out that he also had metastatic breast cancer, so that was a huge surprise. Then one of his sisters was also diagnosed. Last year my dad found out his cancer had spread to his lymph nodes and he was also diagnosed with hairy cell leukemia. He will be celebrating his 95\u003Csup\u003Eth\u003C\/sup\u003E birthday soon. \u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003ERecently, I went out for lunch with a friend of mine, and she says, \u2018my \u003Cnobr\u003E10-year\u003C\/nobr\u003E anniversary of remission is coming up and I\u2019m going to go and celebrate\u2019. And I\u2019m sitting there thinking, I\u2019m not going to be able to say that. I tried not to let it hurt me.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EIt\u2019s hard, because even though I don\u2019t look sick, I am sick with an incurable condition that I will probably die of. When people say I look really good the question that goes through my mind is, what should a person with cancer look like? The answer is most of us just look like everyone \u003Cnobr\u003Eelse \u2013 healthy\u003C\/nobr\u003E on the outside. I\u2019ve never seen a definition. We\u2019re not all bald and gaunt with black circles under our eyes. I know it seems strange to joke about stuff like this but you have to have a sense of humour when you have mBC.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EI have a really positive attitude about everything. I teach a form of medical qigong, which focuses on breath visualization and movement. I use my mind to visualize that there are no cancer cells in my body and I am perfectly healthy. I remember telling a qigong master I just got this diagnosis and he said, \u2018try not to let fear take over because fear affects your kidneys and worry affects your liver.\u2019 Good advice but hard to live by. I also do tai chi and yoga and I can tell you right now I truly think both have really benefitted me. I\u2019m trying to teach my daughters these techniques too. They\u2019re both nurses so they appreciate the positive effects of complementary therapies.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EI hope for longevity. I\u2019m in an mBC support group and every time we go for a CT scan or bone \u003Cnobr\u003Escan \u2013 which\u003C\/nobr\u003E is every 3 \u003Cnobr\u003Emonths \u2013 we\u003C\/nobr\u003E all just kind of hold our breath until we get the results. And when everything is stable, we can breathe again\u2026for another 3 months. At this point I\u2019m just grateful that the chemotherapy that I\u2019m on is preventing the cancer from progressing, that I\u2019m not in pain and I can pretty well do anything I want to right now. 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