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It was to the point where I couldn\u2019t even sit at my desk, it was so painful. I was standing in the office, during meetings, sleep was \u003Cnobr\u003Edifficult \u2013 the\u003C\/nobr\u003E pain was that severe. I went to the doctor and ended up in the emergency room. They didn\u2019t run tests; they just gave me pain killers. It took months, and then finally, with still no answers about why I had this horrible back pain, I found a lump in my breast.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EI went straight to my family doctor, and he said \u2018I don\u2019t know anything about this, I need to send you for a scan\u2019. I was immediately booked for an ultrasound, because I\u2019m too young to have ready access to mammograms. That scan was when I had a real sense I had breast cancer. The woman who was scanning me started off joking, and when she got to that area\u2026her manner changed. You know, I encountered that a lot with people who were supposed to have good poker faces, like the technician who gave me a big hug afterwards and looked like she was going to cry. Anyway, as soon as the ultrasound results came back, my doctor called and said I needed to come in right away for a mammogram. It all happened very quickly for me from there.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EAfter the mammogram, they did a biopsy on the spot. The doctor scanned the results, and told me I had stage 3 breast cancer with lymph node involvement. He gave me a timeline and said, \u2018by this time next year you\u2019ll be on the other side of \u003Cnobr\u003Ethis\u2019 \u2013 though\u003C\/nobr\u003E he still didn\u2019t address my back pain. That\u2019s when they scheduled me for what they described as a \u2018routine\u2019 bone scan. I remember asking my nurse if this was normal and she said, \u2018well, you don\u2019t have pain do you?\u2019 and I said, \u2018yes I have pain, I have so much pain\u2019.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003ESo they gave me a timeline and a diagnosis and said \u2018this is going to be the worst day ever, but you\u2019ll get through this,\u2019\u2026and then the bone scan results came in. \u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EWhen I was going in to get the results, I remember standing on the subway platform, and I felt an intense urge to flee. I wanted to run away. It was all I could do to get on the subway that took me in to get the news. I just didn\u2019t want to hear it. I met my husband at the hospital and we went in to the appointment expecting to hear a plan to fight the breast cancer, and instead the oncologist said, \u2018so, we are no longer looking for a cure, you have stage 4 cancer. It\u2019s in your bones, it\u2019s in your femur and it\u2019s in your spine\u2019. \u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EI had to call my family twice. The first time with the news about breast cancer, and then I had to call a couple of weeks later to tell them it was actually stage 4. It was horrible. My mom was in total denial. She said, \u2018at least it\u2019s not stage 5\u2019, and I hated having to tell her there is no stage 5. But how could she know? \u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EPeople don\u2019t hear the word metastatic often. There\u2019s just not a lot of communication around metastatic breast cancer. Plus, people are very uncomfortable talking about death, because talking about metastatic breast cancer is acknowledging that breast cancer is a disease that kills. Even though more women are having their cancers detected at early stages, just as many women are still dying from breast cancer. Nothing is radically changing. People aren\u2019t talking about it because I think it\u2019s hard for people to admit that we haven\u2019t made the type of progress we\u2019d like to think we would have by now.\u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003ELiving with the spectre of mBC hanging over my head has made me re-evaluate how I live my life. I don\u2019t have the energy I used to have, so I can\u2019t do as much. It\u2019s been very clarifying. I choose to spend more time with my family, with my wonderful husband, my mom, my sisters, my nephews and nieces, and my amazing friends. I love working in my garden and cooking beautiful, nourishing food. I\u2019m writing and making art every chance I get because I have so much that I\u2019d like to say in this life and it\u2019s unlikely that I\u2019ll have enough time to say it all. \u003C\/p\u003E\n\u003Cp\u003EResearchers need more funding if they\u2019re going to accelerate their work with life extending drugs if it\u2019s going to make a difference in the time I have left or for woman being diagnosed with mBC today. 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